My favorite Disney movie is Lion King, but the Disney character I've always identified with is Belle from Beauty and the Beast.
She's a book worm, like me, who always felt like an outsider in her "provincial town". She is brave, but shy. Stubborn, yet kind. And she is a misfit amongst the townspeople. Much as I was as a little girl. Much as I still am among most of society (though I've found my niches where I fit in nicely).
Just before Belle discovers her father has gone missing, she sings a reprise of the opening song:
"I want adventure in the great wide somewhere
I want it more than I can tell.
And for once it might be grand
To have someone understand
I want so much more than they've got planned."
Every single time I'm feeling lonely or particularly outside of the "normal", this snippet of song plays through my head. I regularly find myself singing it without realizing it. Because, in a lot of ways, that is exactly what I want out of my life.
I want adventure in the great wide somewhere.
It may be that my adventure is in parenting, and Renaissance Festival, and simply living out this wonderful life I've chosen.
But I want more than that, too.
I want to leave a mark. I want to travel. I want to try new things. I want to soak up this big, big world, and remember all of it.
And I'm not sure I'll ever be satisfied.